Life is good. I rarely ever start a post with those three words. Most of the time, there is something going on in life that just sucks, and I have a hard time realizing how great life really is. Today, and lately I am noticing just how great my life really is. I am so blessed.
Last week was one of the most stressful weeks of my life. I had like 7 things going on in one week, meetings and events every night, scholarships to deal with, teachers to pester, FFA week things, preparing for a contest and the basics of just keeping my grades up, working and taking care of our home. Through all of this, it was so rewarding to remember that God is good all the time, and for the first time, I actually feel as if I handled my stress well. I look back on the week and see that it was good, and successful, and I give all my credit to the good Lord for that. He is so amazing.
Also this week it has come to my attention that life is really short. You never know when it can be taken from you, and the next thing you know, you could be Home. I feel so blessed to know I will be going Home, so I do not fear death. However, sometimes I live my life with so much caution, that I might not live it up to its potential. I don't share my faith enough, I don't witness enough, I don't sing praises to God enough, and I don't try to influence others with my faith. This is something I want to work on. As far as high schoolers go, I think I am very open about my faith, but I want to be more open. God is so GOOD, and I believe in Him so strongly, that I want others to know His awesomeness and His love. This week I was talking to a close friend and he compared my faith in this way... "Mishele, you have such a child-like faith." At first I didn't quite understand, but he went on to explain that I just love God so much, with all my heart, and I never doubt him. That it's an innocent love...the kind that isn't all mucked up from the world. I took that statement as a compliment... I never thought I could believe in something so much, but with God, I don't even have to try and believe. I just know He is there.. I want everyone to feel that way! :) Granted, I am not perfect.. I sin.. a lot. I am just so grateful for God's grace and mercy over his people.
For the first time in my 18 years.. I am really feeling good about myself. It is awesome! I wish I would have felt like this years ago... But I am at least happy that I feel good now. Life can be weird, and crazy and beautiful all at the same time, and I still just feel good. I'm not struggling with urges to cut or to fall into depression. I realize that I have amazing friends, family and a church family. I realize God has blessed me... and that is good enough for me.
