Last night was really incredible. At my church we are doing this thing called the week of prayer and fasting. I am fasting from eating during the day. So from about 8AM-5PM. I am about and hour and half away from being able to eat.. and let me tell you I am excited. But today I spent my lunch with God, which was cool! Also, during this week we meet at the church every night at 7, and hook up through web cast with other Church's. Different pastors speak and give topics to pray on. It was so cool to be with members of my Church just praying for so many great things that are some times hard to work into every day prayer. :) I was on a spiritual high for sure, I got home and I could barely sleep!
However, today I was feeling a lack of God. Which is terrible. Even during my lunch house when I was reading and journaling I could barely stayed focused on God. I'm not quite sure what happened. Later on a situation came up, and I really should have prayed about it before anything happened. My sister has a health issue. Its undiagnosed, but causes her to miss a lot of school. Last year she was on a special plan so she wasn't going to be denied credit, however it was not renewed. Today out counselor came into class and talked to Chenelle about how she was going to be denied credit ect.. and really upset her. Well, this upset me. I hate when my family gets upset, even if its just because of a misunderstanding, which this was. Our counselor really didn't understand Chenelle. She didn't know how to talk to her, or how to handle the situation, or even that we come for a Mom who has cancer and an alcoholic Dad. I had to explain all that to her, and boyyy did I come in with my fists raised. That was a huge mistake. I should have been patient, or maybe just ignored the issue. But that didn't happen. I did apologize for my behavior, but It never should of happened in the first place.
Lord, I just pray that You can give me guidance in situations that are bigger than me. I pray that You give me patients and understanding of those who do not understand situations. Lord, I pray that You can help my sister and her health Lord, and that all if this can just get taken care of. I pray that whatever happens is under Your control, and that Your path will always lead us in the right direction. I love you Lord. :)
In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.
