For some reason these last few weeks have been really draining for me. I hate this feeling. I hate always feeling tired and like I've gone brain dead. It isn't enjoyable for me what so ever.
The senior paper I this is really just making me feel blah. It's not hard, so that isn't the issue what so ever. I've turned everything in on time, and have managed to learn a lot through it. However, I feel like someone is holding my hand. I hate being treated like I need help and numbered steps for writing papers. I love writing papers. It comes natural for me, but when we have over a month to get everything taken care of for a paper, it is just plain tireding.
Through all this I still know God is good. At the end of every day, as I lay in bed and am just relaxing, I pull out my phone and turn on my bible and read what my plan tells me to read. I have done this 27 days now, and it feels amazing. I love being able to read Gods word when I am tired and I need encouraging words. I am always reminded that God is SO GOOD! I have learned so many thing that I never knew about God and the bible before, I enjoy it so much that it makes all the other crappy things worth it.
On another really awesome note I got new clothes the other day! After Christmas I tried to save up as much money as possible. I didn't get many new school clothes this year so what I had was getting really boring. I was wearing the same thing over and over again. I didn't really care what other people thought but it was making me feel down. Way down. Its weird how something just like your appearance could make you feel like crap. Anyway, Last weekend my bestest friends Taylor, Shayleigh and Jessy and I all went down to Tri Cities to finally get new clothes! Barbara also met me down there. So I had almost all my best friends helping me pick out a bunch of new clothes! I managed to get about 3 new outfits, at least. I feel ten times better about myself now that I have comfortable clothes that fit and don't make me feel self conscious about myself. Its really nice.
Things on the college front are looking good. I accepted my first scholarship of $3000. :) I have also been working on my state officer application too. I am kind of getting excited about that again as well. I just need to determine my goals for state office now. :)
Overall, life is nice other than being extremely tired and lethargic. Never forget that God is good, because really he is. :)
